it's already March but #HappyNewYear2024!
Assalamualaikum and hi!
It has been two years, since my last posting. Reading my last post, I was happy updating random story on my blog.
Time flies, in a blink of an eye. Happy 2024, my dear readers (if any) walaupun lambat sikit nak wish. I wish I could tell each and everything that happened in the span of two years, here. So you don’t miss out any.
Just in case you are new here, hello. My name is Nadiera, and I will turn 25 years old this year. Huaaa i'm old! Nobody really reads ‘blog’ nowadays. Tapi as someone yang kerap overthinking and whose dream was to become a writer since I was in highschool, I have started writing since then. Hence, this blog. It has become a place where I journal my feelings, memories, random thoughts, a place where initially nobody cares. Nobody reads.
Anyway to make it short, I had finished my degree! Yey. When I look back, I think my degree life was really fun. Even though my final year project was a bit stressful, I enjoyed my journey to complete FYP throughout 2022. My supervisor, Dr. Rosini helped me a lot. Up and down, she gave me encouragement and made time for me. And I got full marks for the FYP presentation! Thank you to Dr. Farizal too. He was very kind to me and not really strict during the presentation session. Of course like other students, I was worried and nervous to present the research I have done. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly and I got an A for my FYP.
I only had 4 papers (FYP, Robotics, Manufacturing System Engineering & Innovation) for my final semester. It's true when people say, Allah's provision is vast. Having a good lecturers is also a blessing. Maybe that's why I enjoyed my final semester so much. Also, I had many friends who helped me with my assignments that were quite difficult. Shout out to Liyana & Nurin because they helped me with my temperature sensor assignment hehe. And thank Allah, thanks to my hard work, help from lecturers & friends, for the first time I got 4 flats (😭). That was my first time getting 4 flats while studying at UUM.
'Hidup ini warna warni, tidak mungkin hanya hitam putih saja. Jangan berharap selalu bahagia, jangan juga berpikir kesedihan akan selamanya.'
I started my internship on April until October last year at a small company. It was a fun journey. New experience for me! I learned new skills, new knowledge, met many people and started to build connection with them. However, life was not easy for me last year. 2023 for me wasn't the worst year of my life but it was a challenging one. It often makes me think that everyone else made it look so easy. Why was this proving to be so hard for me? And my mind wouldn't let me rest.
For the whole year, I felt like I had lost the real Nadiera somewhere between the old me and the new me. Maybe I'm too overwhelmed with life called adulthood. Welcome to adulthood, Nadiera. But everything will be fine. I put my trust in Allah. Lately, i have been finding comfort in my silences. This year, I just want to learn to choose my inner peace over people. No roster, no nothing, just me finding my peace, getting close to Allah, healing my heart I didn't break and doing what's best for me because i deserve that 🥰.
For the whole year, I felt like I had lost the real Nadiera somewhere between the old me and the new me. Maybe I'm too overwhelmed with life called adulthood. Welcome to adulthood, Nadiera. But everything will be fine. I put my trust in Allah. Lately, i have been finding comfort in my silences. This year, I just want to learn to choose my inner peace over people. No roster, no nothing, just me finding my peace, getting close to Allah, healing my heart I didn't break and doing what's best for me because i deserve that 🥰.
So worry not, you'll be fine, you'll be good, Nadiera.
Because life was hard back then, I decided to adopt a cat. I really want one. The last time I adopted a cat was when I was in high school. My cat, Mino was the last cat I adopted. After mino died, I was quite traumatized to adopt a cat. I don't think I'm strong enough to face another loss. But last year there was a feeling in my heart that said I needed to adopt at least one cat. So I decided to find any stray cat to adopt in the facebook group. Make it short, there was this one girl dm-ed me, she said she got 6 kittens & she couldn't take care of them. I went to her house, there were 6 kittens. Actually, if I were rich, I would adopt all of them. But I can't afford it. At first I only wanted to adopt one kitten, but my brother-in-law said to adopt two so that the kittens wouldn't feel lonely.
Tuan Muda Boba & Tuan Muda Cengkih. The name I gave them. Both were born in April 2023. Both are male. The presence of both of them in this house has a very positive effect on me. Now there are Boba and Cengkih to be there for me. I have friends to play with, friends to sing with, friends to talk tk and friends to sleep with. I can see my mental health getting better day by day 🥰
Hardwork will never betray you.
Before 2023 ends, the practicum result also came out. At first I was a bit worried. Like what if I didn't get an A for the internship?? As a youngest daughter who is always craving for academic validation, I want good results. If you know me, I really keep my exam results from semester 1. There were also semesters where my results suddenly plummet. Long story short, when the practicum results came out I was so happy. I got an A+ for the practicum. If Allah izinkan, InsyaAllah with the results I get, I will graduate with first class degree. One of my goals is for my mother, brothers and sisters to wear convocation robe and selempang emas UUM. Also, i want PTPTN exemption please (🥺). If there is luck, I will graduate this year! If I have a chance to go to my graduation day, maybe I will update another post about my graduation day hehe. InsyaAllah.
Alhamdulillah for everything, ya Allah.
That is my life update so far. There's more but i think this is enough for now. Off to bed now, until next time!
Your truly,
Nadiera Hashim
4:39 am
Kedah, Malaysia.
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