Lately, i have been thinking a lot.

One of the things I always thought of was "not everyone want to see you happy". Actually this thing has happened many times in one's life. Everyone will judge when we do something that we like. I always thought either the small circle that I have now is everyone  who wants to see me happy or not? Before I entered my 20s I began to notice that I had some friends who actually did not want to see me happy and success. I didn't know if I was mistaken for them but I started avoiding them by blocking all of their social media. I don't want to be toxic in their life. So I chose to stay away. I start to feel happy when I start a new life by narrowing down my circle.

Tonight, I feel the same way. Just like I felt like 2 - 3 years ago. I feel like there are little pieces that don't want to see me happy. Or is it all just my feelings? I do not know. But I'm happy with everyone who is my friends now. I'm grateful for the small circle I have now. Alhamdulillah thank you Allah 💜

I learned a lot. Not everyone will be happy for you when you share your joy and success, but i don't want to let that bring me down and i just want to keep striving anyway. I love to share my joy, to share what I have, from little things like food or love. I don't mind sharing what I have because I understand the feeling of not having something I want.

Lately, I've always taken note of who supports me genuinely. Those are people i should always keep around. Thank you everyone. I also learned something that not everyone will understand my journey but that is okay. i am here to live my life, not to make everyone understand, rite? :) But ... sometime I always talk to myself while crying ... 


Why can't people cheer the happiness of others? Don't human beings complement each other? I understand that we don't  live to please each other but why should there be hatred? Why is it necessary to envy when looking at the happiness of others? Aren't we supposed to support each other? I don't mind sharing my happiness with people. I love to see people around me happy but why they don't have the same thoughts as me? Sometimes this makes me sad and makes me cry every night when I think of it.

To anyone who finds themselves surrounded by people who cannot see you being happy, do not worry, believe me that there is still someone who cares and will be happy with you. Hang in there okay! 💜


I didn't expect anything. I just pray for the unhappy soul to feel joy, I pray that the hurting soul will heal immediately and for those who cannot see the joy of others will find their own happiness. Dear friends, lets spread love shall we? Lets cheer people up, lets be good to each other. if we can't find good people around us, if we really can't find one, be one. Promise me to spread loves not hates, okay 💜