It's Jun 7 2018. Crying non stop. I hate this situation for sure. Dua tiga menjak ni banyak benda berlaku. I don't know how to handle all of this problems ( read as : i hate myself ) Seriously i really need attention from all my cricles. I need motivation.
Semua masalah ni got me like :
Raya dah dekat, but i throw myself in this problem. Tak guna. Crush je kot. Apa pasal macam berhadapan dengan masalah negara ? I hate the fact that i was bad at love and i loved him too hard. And the result now, memakan diri. I wish tahun ni berlalu dengan pantas so that i tak perlu nampak muka dia after this.
Sumpah! i regret. I supposed listen to Jiah sebelum ni. He has negative vibes. Maybe less but ada! Well bukan salah dia. I yang bodoh yang fell in love with him buat apa?. He has no idea about this. Nama pun crush kan? But seriously, why Nad?? You need to be more careful after this. Don't fall in love too easily. Don't be stupid. Just don't.
Sumpah! You need to focus more on yourself, your family and your studies. Its semester 3. The last semester in Form 6 and you need to score this time. Please wahai diri, don't give up just because of your crush and his ex. You have a lot of things to do. Let him be. Let them be. Just pray for their happiness. Soon, really really soon, you will feel the same, the happiness too. So you need to bangkit and terus berjuang.
Menangis, sedih, hilang selara makan, mandi tak basah apa semua tu tak membantu menyelesaikan masalah. Move on. Move on. Move on. Move on. Move on. Ramai orang kisah tentang diri hang, Nad. Don't let masalah ni jatuhkan diri hang dan makan diri hang. Kita manusia, kita urus masalah. Bukan masalah urus kita. Let it go. Let him be. Let them be. Kali ni hang kena betul-betul move on. Not like before, move on tapi still ada perasaan. Apa benda. TIBERR! Bangkit !
Last but not least, let be happy again myself. You know there a lot of people yang sayang you. You have your mama, abang-abang, kakak-kakak and Namin and Jiah as well. Don't make your mama risau about yourself. She will be sad if know that you are not okey. So cheer up! Love yourself, love myself.
